Childhood innocence
When I was very little, like five to eight years old, I felt immediate peace at our Gurdwara temple! This was a place of sanctuary, in which it was easy for me to experience peace as I felt into the vibrations around me – of hearing ancient mantras, spoken out aloud, rhythmically soothing. I would easily drop into my own inner silence and tranquility would spill all over me.
I did not know at that time, what was actually happening but I was tapping into my own presence.
Worried mind
When I became an adult however, peace completely alluded me….mental chatter became the norm, accompanied with a regular knot in my stomach! It became difficult to switch off from the worrying mind, which kept that knot alive. The more I worried the less I was aware of my own presence.
After all, there were always targets to meet, accomplishments on the line, people to respond to, and standards to adhere by.
The worried mind took away the childhood innocence and not because this was the favoured way to go, but more because of circumstance – the world was much harsher than my child like version of me, had remembered. Now I was literally eating ‘stress and adrenaline’ regularly. Of course, peace went out the door.
Peace and Self-Awareness
As I turn even older, knowing the knot in my stomach has ‘mostly gone’ thanks to the help of the Dalian Method – I finally understand why the world is the way it is. It is inviting us to keep exploring and expanding our perceptions.
With so many dysfunctional human behaviours that trigger and upset us when we liaise with other human beings – I finally understand the world may never come to peace, as all this dysfunctional stuff is deliberately there.. exists ‘on purpose’ – hiding a very treasured gift.
This is how the light grows on this planet and how the world expands into greater and greater joy. This is the joy of growing self-awareness. This is how the individual is born. This is how the new man emerges, away from being a slave to his/her own insecurities.
Victory
Living through upset is difficult. But, the victorious thing in all of this, is…. we get to finally understand that true peace – which has to be mined from within – cannot be stolen or lost, is not dependent on another and once found again in our adulthood, it is here to be celebrated.
All upsetting mental chatter, once muted and transformed through increased consciousness, leads to permanent inner peace… and that inner knot of worry or dismay, grief or bewilderment, can be changed, alchemized into a free space within, which grows bit by bit…like drops filling up a glass, until it is full. Full within itself , our place of self-realization and our dignity.
Ego-mind to Peace
Every disturbance from outside, has had a damn good purpose; whether it was
- blame,
- judgments,
- criticism,
- anger or
- tears I faced,
all of it has been merely asking me to dig even deeper within to find my strength…….to detoxify from my own inner limiting beliefs and conclusions – so that I can be relieved from my own ego-mind and its conclusions and stuckness – back into my peaceful centre inside.
Kindi Dulai
The Game of Life
Life is a crazy game of light and dark! If we relax into it and begin to enjoy the journey – we can surrender into growing this peace inside. And for that, a deep let go has to arise.
Let Go
With my ego-mind completely worn down, it is easier to accept! Gracefully accepting what life deems is the best way forward, through what it supports and what it does not – this is the only way to inner peace. Every other approach of resistance, struggle etc, seems futile and filled with inevitable and unnecessary suffering!
